Poem

Here's a poem I wrote a while back about Tori...


Your smile was what began it all.

That smile of yours
It used to be able to stop
All of existence and leave me
In a constant euphoria.

That smile of yours used
to be able to turn my world
upside down, no matter the
circumstance.

That smile of yours worked
its way into my heart and left
an imprint of itself there, forever.
It started all of it.

The smile grew brighter at first.
We made it better for a while,
and it was enough to send me headfirst
into a world where I knew happiness.

But now that same smile destroys me.
It leaves me in shambles and crawling
back to a past that will never return.
And I will never be the same.

The smile that would so brighten my day
Is now a constant reminder of what was,
and what will never be. A constant reminder
that I will never be enough.

Now you smile less than you used to,
or at least you do so around me.
And what does arise, is nothing but a
hollow shell of what was there.

But then I see you around others,
your smile as great as it was before
and even at times I catch that same smile
You used to give me.

Only now it's not mines.
Now it's proof that I will forever lose.
Proof that I was nothing to you.
Proof that you will never be happy around me again.

Now you smile for him,
Now you smile for everyone else,
Even in front of me you smile for him,
and it sends me back into despair every time.

So I must bid you adieu, my love.
Where love once bloomed,
now poison scatters the ground,
killing all it touches.

For both of our sakes, we part,
but as you forget me,
I will never forget you.
You will never leave my heart.

I turn my back and walk away as you do the same.
But I look back every few steps.
Making sure you're ok,
praying you're looking back to.

But you're not.
And it's over.
Never again will
I know that smile.

The smile that started and ended it all.
I love you.