[L] Tonight the World Dies - Avenged Sevenfold

(Yeah, originally it was You Raise me Up - Josh Groban but... yeah no. Just. No.)


Dear [Name],

I think I can start this exclusively by apologizing, again.

I don't know how things have gotten to the point where they are, or why we are where we are, but it looks like we're here nonetheless. To be a hundred percent honest, I did not intend to attempt to integrate back into the group that fast, nor that strongly. It just kind of happened. Had I not run into those two when I did, I would have waited till at least Monday to text anyone for anything. But life's just kinda funny that way I guess. 'Tis only been three days though, dunno how the hell three days seems like at least a week, but it does lol.

Maybe I imagined it, but I love the look you had when you saw me. That priceless "Oh FFS" was both amusing and somewhat depressing, not gonna lie. Went about how I might've expected it to go though. You're not the kind to really by upfront about these kind of things unless you just finally snap. And given previous circumstances it wasn't likely that you'd do that just yet so.

It's... Interesting though. Through sheer luck and random circumstances we've ended up side by side quite a few times, and yet each time we never even look at each other or say a word to each other when we do. It's kind of like there's a wall of unobtanium between us. And there is, in more than one ways, a wall between us. I'm sure I'm not imagining this one at least. If I had to explain it, it'd be like this: There's certain subtleties in your behavior towards me (and some that are quite frankly not-so-subtle, at all) that indicate a... I'd use the word dislike? Towards me. If I had to describe in the simplest way possible, it'd be a frankness in your demeanor that just isn't there towards other people. It's not just honesty it's a kind of cruel, timed, frankness that seems to go towards supporting the unobtanium wall. I don't know if it's meant to make me uncomfortable or not. I don't know if it is in fact a sign that you dislike me. I can't tell to be honest. The reason that I called it you being frank though, because it's something that I don't really see that often. Or maybe I'm imagining shit again. Oh well.

To be honest, I feel like I'm making you uncomfortable, I really do. And at this rate I'm probably just going to be entirely frank with you soon, and ask you straight up. Because quite frankly I don't want to be "that guy" so I'd have little problems gracefully bowing out before it all explodes on my face.

Thank you though, for putting up with me as long as you have. I appreciate it.


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